Past Imperfect...

Ok...so I wasn't so good at posting over the weekend...I really wanted to, but with 3 kids at home, it is tough to find a moments peace to do anything by myself...going to the bathroom is one of them...you all know what I mean...

Yesterday was a snow day, so that extended the weekend by a day, which for any Mom is usually a blessing or a curse. Could be a blessing if there isn't several inches or feet of snow hampering your way out of the madness or the curse being you are stranded inside...ALL DAY! Well, the kids do go out and play, but in freezing temps, not for very long, or not as long as I would like!

Please don't get me wrong...I sincerely LOVE my children, but I also sincerely LOVE my sanity too and after two days I am ready for a break, mental, physical, you name it. I am a SAHM with a toddler at home, I do get a break from my older two and a couple hours in the afternoon when naptime arrives, I say "AMEN" to that. But where does the time go? Before I know it, the older ones are coming home and the little one is up, barely anything gets done...ugh! How did I do it when I was working...beats me...

I don't know what I will do when my toddler stops taking naps...I say "Pre-School"! Actually, I really think it is great for children, especially high energy ones like mine, to go to school for a couple hours here and there, get them ready for the big leagues of real school. My little one pleads to go to school with the older kids...ahh...little do they know that they will be begging to stay home once they are old enough!

Now I know a lot of parents out there will agree with me and also disagree, saying they love playing with their children and are glad to have them home. I say "God Bless You"!

I wish, that I was that kind of Mom, I really do, you know the ones, that come up with great crafts and fun things to do with their kids (I have a friend who is one of those Moms and she loves it, I envy her). And those Moms seem to geniunely enjoy playing with their children. That is really great. I wish I could do it, but I just can't bring myself to.

I do play with my kids and we do fun stuff and I am a very crafty creative person...just on my own. I have what they call a "perfectionist/control" problem, it is hard for me to do a project with someone else without having to take over and do it myself. I have had this affliction my whole life or for as long as I can remember.

It is not a blessing but a curse, because it drives me and everyone else crazy. I have tried to let go of it, but sure enough, it comes creeping back in to my personality. I personally think since I have had children, I HAVE gotten better, BUT it is still there to some degree.

So, I go about my days with my affliction, trying to suppress it when I see the state of my kids' bedrooms or the kitchen...or the attempt at a craft project during that fateful snow storm that closed their school. Maybe if I leave it long enough it will get done AND put away...hmmm...better not place any bets on that one...